It's 1:39 in the morning, I have bronchitis, you were just crying in the middle of the night. You are a very good sleeper, but tend to have nights here & there in which you wake up. Most nights we wait for you to soothe yourself, sometimes we fix your blanket & give you your paci and others you may actually need rocked.
I won't lie to you, we don't always seem happy about these early wake ups. Especially, on the nights I am not feeling well. Tonight, it's different. Tonight I was overcome by the love and blessings from God, tonight I just wanted to hold you.
We read "In Case you Ever Wonder", by Max Lucado. It has become a favorite of mine. I hope when you are a little older it will be a favorite of yours. The book talks about the love Momma and Daddy have for you, but most importantly the love God has for you.
Tonight on my night of your fussiness, my bronchitis, I felt the power of God's love for me. He loves me so much he gave me you. For the first time I felt loved that you are growing so fast. (Usually it breaks my heart) As I stood, rocking you, your feet were dangling near my legs in your 12M pjs, your head was on my shoulder and all that was going through my head was the song "Oh how he loves us". I had just been dead asleep. Not sure I had even heard that song today, but it was playing in my head as I rocked you.
I hope you always know, feel and honor how God loves you. I pray in your times of restlessness you seek him. He will give you rest, strength and healing. Just in case you ever wonder of his love, seek him. In the middle of the night, early morning, in sickness, you will find him. Just seek him. I was overcome with his love one night as I rocked you, my growing little angel. I pray you have this feeling often, you know it's him and you really never have to wonder how Momma loves you, Daddy loves you, but most importantly God loves you.
Love,
Momma
